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Well, I can't do the first line book meme at work, so, since I'm feeling kinda like a gassy mushroom of unjoy and ugly at the moment, I'll do a list of things I appreciate and love, though I feel no enthusiasm for the task...let's see how I feel by the end of it...

*the lj (thanks Kell-star)
*my friends, my friends, my friends
*Yo La Tengo tape currently playing
*my job, for the being able to eat and pay rent and having access to spiffy computer and printer and scanner tech
*Aristotle and Sula
*my housemates
*good, not too expensive restuarants
*sunlight, cause it is nice after a series of grey days
*current book by Michael Chabon, The Adventures of Kavalier and Clay, because the writing and story are a-mazing
*Mexican hot chocolate
*the little portable beach kit my sister sent me, where a small godzilla sits in the sand with a small beachball on my desk
*my sister
*buses, when I don't feel like walking
*sickdays, cause I think I need to take on Friday
*Phyllis, who will go to almost any movie with me
*back to lj, and my friends, especially A&K, for whom I am most thankful

...and that's all I can seem to come up with; still not feeling very perky, but I do feel a little better.

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Dissecting the reasons for the unhappy...

~Slept very poorly cause of angsty dreams about lack of safe space, home, shelter, rightness in the world
~Having the burp alot indigestion blorgy feeling
~News yesterday that the state is reappropriating 7% of our funding for this fiscal year (and every other state angency's) and that there is that real possibility, as there wasn't before, this center having been funded for 30 years, that we could be entirely axed come September 1st. Considering how long it took me to find this job, 30 hrs a wk, not soul destroying, this is very unsettling stuff. Thank you so much Mr. Bush.
~not getting much writing done, feeling insecure and lonely

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