status report

[storyrainthejournal]

First consultation appointment with pain medication specialist is scheduled for tomorrow. That was the earliest I could get at any of the clinics I called.

Yesterday morning my hot water heater, which I replaced six years ago, burst. Waterfall rain all into my utility closet over the washer dryer cat litter, flooding my kitchen.

And I've got a yeast infection I can't treat because my gory, wounded, hurting fingers are all wrapped up in bandages.

 

I feel like I'm cursed. If any of my friends feel like doing some sort of ritual of curse lifting or good fortune or blessing or something for me, please do.

I’ve had such good kind beautiful help from friends and neighbors and from some home nursing professionals for the bandaging. But at night I am alone with pain for hours on end. And it’s not pain with a purpose to heal me. It’s not pain to produce a new life. It’s just pain and I’m alone with it and I can’t see when it’s going to end.
 

I have done lots of breath meditation and watched a lot of things to try to distract myself. There’s a point where all I can do is cry. My spirit feels pretty broken at this point. I miss writing fiction and making art.

If you are not alone with terrible pain, that no one so far has given you any help for, be very, very thankful.


 

 

Comments

[j_cheney]

I hope that tomorrow you'll get some relief!

[storyrainthejournal]

Indeed. Update forthcoming. <3

[marthawells]

*hugs* I hope the pain specialist can help!

You might have already tried this, but just in case, if you can get a prescription there are pills you can get for yeast infections. I got one through a telehealth appointment once, because monastat was really painful for me to use.

[storyrainthejournal]

They did--update forthcoming. <3